Look Deeper

so its been awhile........ i'm bored with nothing to do. i'm quite positive that the few ppl who used to frequent my page have long since given up on me, however i need to vent...and so i shall. a lot has happened since last february....i passed my first year at mac, i'm still with matt and i've been working lots at both my jobs. school is starting soon and i was just informed this week by matt that he is now going to niagra colledge for school...and he'll be living there. it sucks. i'm happy for him but i have enough jealousy issues while he's here.....imagine what they'll be like now. who knows if we'll last? i hope so but i cant help be apprehensive. to top it all off we got into another fight tonight. the honeymoon is definately over. hell the only time he'll buy me flowers now is when we fight, the last time he wrote me a note or letter? i cant remember and his e-mails consist of the same thing - i'm tired, i love you bye. clearly we have a lot to work on. on an up note, school is starting soon and i'm happy to be back. not to excited about the mad amounts of preschoolers that will be running around campus tho. i feel old. which is rediculous. but i do. anyways thats about all the bitching my out of typing-practice fingers can handle. ciao

Wednesday, February 19, 2003 11:19 a.m.

guess what? five days including today until my birthday! i want everyone to come to billy's :) i miss all you guys... i'm actually not too excited for the big two oh...no exciting presents from the fam (my mom agreed to pay my first cell phone bill and thats my gift) and hanna isn't even going to be here. i'm not impressed with that, but whatever i guess. on an up note its been 9 months with matt. he's nice. i've gotten him to admitt that he is whipped but now he is rebelling against my powers. damn him! lol. thats about enough procrastinating from the homework for now i guess...ciao

Thursday, January 23, 2003 12:02 p.m.

i dont know why, but with second semester officially here i cant seem to make myself go to my classes. perhaps this is why so many students fail. my neck is defective. i cant turn it to the left. ouch :( its all very frustrating.its going to be my birthday soon!!! the big 20...i dont know what i want to do yet but hopefully ppl are home and can spend it with me :) there is a girl, who will go unnamed that i absolutely despise. she is a slut. and i am extremely jealous as mr.coulter is quite attracted to her. i hate her. what makes it worse is that she's really really pretty. i fucking hate pretty girls. they should rot.

Tuesday, January 14, 2003 09:34 p.m.

dan could you pardon my stupidity and please enlighten me on what exactly a 'Giner Stank is?...they dont teach these things in university. so i'm back to school and i have only been to a few classes b/c administration decided to change my shedule and not tell me, so instead of english i ended up in physics and algebra. damn that administration. i think they are testing me to see if i am smart enough to be in their school. i obviously failed. damn.

Wednesday, January 8, 2003 10:31 p.m.

hello again. its been awhile but since i'm not even sure anyone reads this i guess it doesn't matter. not much has been going on with my life. i saw ian today which made me happy. and of course i saw mr.coulter. i must be the most jealous person ever. i swear to god. every female is a threat...and some guys to. its sad. i have a new goal that dawned on me while sitting on top of a hill freezing my ass off while various friends tobogganed (does that have two b's?) * my new goal - i want everyone to have a sexual fantasy about me. i know this is quite a big favour to ask, some people may become sick just from the thought. but it makes me feel happy and loved. so hanna i guess you must be the first...just kidding. well this was a strange entry. i enjoyed it. ciao

Thursday, December 5, 2002 12:57 p.m.

*i am excitied for hanna to get married* that means that i get to be the maid of honour*what does that even mean? am i honourable?*the only concern i have is that hanna is now in the possition to put me in the most god-awful dress she can find...*on an up note i get to throw parties involving the use of strippers*or maybe we will just be the strippers*on that note, congradulations my dear* p.s. - you are still a cunt.

Sunday, December 1, 2002 07:11 p.m.

i was in a car accident today, i hate snow. i hate cars. die. die. die.

Monday, November 25, 2002 10:57 p.m.

here are just a few of the reasons why hanna is a cunt: 1) she never calls 2) she never writes 3) she never types 4) i'll leave msgs on her msn that she never answers 5) she doesn't speak to me unless she is planning on coming home...and sometimes not even then 6) she never comes home anymore anyways 7) does she even care?